this is a little long, but so worth the read

My child, listen to what I say, and treasure my commands. Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding. Cry out for insight, and ask for understanding. Search for them as you would for silver; seek them like hidden treasures. Then you will understand what it means to fear the Lord, and you will gain knowledge of God. For the Lord grants wisdom! From his mouth come knowledge and understanding. He grants a treasure of common sense to the honest. He is a shield to those who walk with integrity. He guards the paths of the just and protects those who are faithful to him.

Then you will understand what is right, just, and fair, and you will find the right way to go. For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will fill you with joy. Wise choices will watch over you. Understanding will keep you safe.

Wisdom will save you from evil people, from those whose words are twisted. These men turn from the right way to walk down dark paths. They take pleasure in doing wrong, and they enjoy the twisted ways of evil. Their actions are crooked, and their ways are wrong.

Wisdom will save you from the immoral woman, from the seductive words of the promiscuous woman. She has abandoned her husband and ignores the covenant she made before God. Entering her house leads to death; it is the road to the grave. The man who visits her is doomed. He will never reach the paths of life.

Follow the steps of good men instead, and stay on the paths of the righteous. For only the godly will live in the land, and those with integrity will remain in it. But the wicked will be removed from the land, and the treacherous will be uprooted.

- Proverbs 2 (NLT)

monday reflections

Been thinking about community. What/Who/Where is my dominant community? What does it mean to live in community?

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The weekend has been pretty eventful. The PJGH community welcomed back 2 close friends after their 2-year stint in the UK, and it was great spending time with them over the weekend. It's funny how it feels like we all just picked up from where we left things the last time. Has it really been 2 years??

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An eventful weekend made for random noodle and ikan bakar nights; dessert chillaxes with a view; passing on the temptation to sleep in on a wet Saturday morning for the sake of melt-in-your-mouth siew yoke in downtown Kay-El; 8 second zapped Krispy Kreme glazed donuts...and nuts; sipping drinks at a Rich Pappa's crib; more ikan bakar still; enriched chocolate catchups with an 'old' good friend.

I'm tired.

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I'm tired.

I'm really tired of the last I-don't-know-how-many weeks.

I have been reminded to "be still". Tough it is. But still I try. Because I know that I've done my part. And because there really isn't much else that I can do now but pray. And hope.

I hope you realise that the ball is really in your court now. So are you gonna play or what? I'm still waiting.

being human

"If it makes you happy, I'll confess to you - I'm afraid. I'm scared. I'm sick." - Rip Darren, Six Who Died

"I need you. You need me." - CPK sharing on the body of Christ (1 Cor 12)

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I laugh. I cry. I worry. I yearn. I hurt. I rejoice. I feel.

I too am only human.

Like you.

unexpected insights

I think I now understand better where you were coming from when you posted those words on 13 March 2008. It's funny how I never saw things from that perspective until recently.

I regret that I never had the chance to talk to you about what happened back then and was fed information which represented only the side of the story that wasn't yours. I guess it took me to hop on the same boat that you were once on, in order for me to see things from your vantage point.

I think I understand now. I think.

EDIT: If you think I'm referring to you, I'm not.

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1 month. How many more?

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Spotted on a friend's FB wall...
"Forgiveness can be unilateral; reconciliation is always mutual."

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I'm tired and I need sleep. ZZZzzzZZZzzz...

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TWICE in the span of about a month simply sucks.

The white Viva makes its appearance again.

r-r-r-random

A traffic accident involving you. Sad conversations. Standing beside some lalang watching people play football in some random field. C&S group. Zombies invading C&S group. Zombies that look like normal human beings but are not. Guns. Running low on ammo. A warehouse. Running. Running some more. Bright lights.

I opened my eyes and picked up my phones. It was just a dream. And I was very late for work.

reflecting

The weekend was bittersweet.

Things are still pretty much status quo. I thought I saw a glimmer of hope early Sunday morning. But I guess I know better these days that it's sometimes better to be a pessimist. You make it look so easy. Effortless. But I'm not you. And I find it difficult to smile when...

Worship on Sunday was a panacea to the soul. Thanks Benny.

A picture painted of God's redemptive love // Draw me close. Soar above the storm. Our one unchanging constant. Victory // Welling up. Flowing down. Quivering. Choking. Standing. In awe.

CPK's sermon was inspiring. But sad. To love the LORD with all our heart, soul, mind and strength. To love our neighbour as ourselves. How far have we missed the point. I wondered if...

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3 Sundays have passed since.
A lot more has happened in between.
And I still don't know what, when, why, how...