Friday, May 29, 2009

wishful thinking

A habit of mankind to entrust to careless hope what they long for, and to use sovereign reason to thrust aside what they do not desire.

I want P to be true.
Therefore, P is true.

I don't know whether to laugh or throw up.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

ps 73

Surely God is good to Israel,
to those who are pure in heart.

But as for me, my feet had almost slipped;
I had nearly lost my foothold.
For I envied the arrogant
when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
They have no struggles;
their bodies are healthy and strong.
They are free from the burdens common to man;
they are not plagued by human ills.
Therefore pride is their necklace;
they clothe themselves with violence.

From their callous hearts comes iniquity;
the evil conceits of their minds know no limits.
They scoff, and speak with malice;
in their arrogance they threaten oppression.
Their mouths lay claim to heaven,
and their tongues take possession of the earth.
Therefore their people turn to them
and drink up waters in abundance.
They say, "How can God know?
Does the Most High have knowledge?"
This is what the wicked are like—
always carefree, they increase in wealth.

Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure;
in vain have I washed my hands in innocence.
All day long I have been plagued;
I have been punished every morning.
If I had said, "I will speak thus,"
I would have betrayed your children.
When I tried to understand all this,
it was oppressive to me
till I entered the sanctuary of God;
then I understood their final destiny.

Surely you place them on slippery ground;
you cast them down to ruin.
How suddenly are they destroyed,
completely swept away by terrors!
As a dream when one awakes, so when you arise,
O Lord, you will despise them as fantasies.
When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.

But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge.
I will tell of all your deeds.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

a new day has come

It's a new day and it feels as though the 'Reset' button has just been hit and we've booted up on a brand new operating system. It's familiar ground, yet also terra nova. Newer versions are usually known to be better than their predecessors. Let's just hope the bugs have been fixed!

On a somewhat related note, I missed out on my usual nap on the train this morning because I couldn't get a seat. But that gave me the opportunity to catch a glorious sunrise as the train journeyed on from PJ towards KL. The sky was bathed of brilliant hues of orange, gold and violet. Cirrus clouds danced in graceful swirls. The rays of the rising sun slowly pierced through the darkness like knives pointing out in all directions. Mesmerising.

And to top it off, I saw a rainbow while walking from the train station to my office building. Nice.

Reminders of Your grace. Reminders of a God who loves. A God who redeems.

It's a new day.
And the day is B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L.

Thursday, May 07, 2009


Twisted, mangled, convoluted thoughts.
Fumbling over slippery stones.
Spilling hesitant words.

Seeking to always seek the good of the other.
Seeking to temper truth with grace.
Seeking to forgive and forget.
Seeking to love.

I'm still holding on.
Not wanting this chapter to slip away into history like the rest.