It's been hard maintaining the discipline of regular blogging with so many things seeming to scream out for our attention. A random thought: if my blog were my girlfriend, I think she would have left me a long time ago! Heh.
Today I reminisce over a month gone by: a month that has had its fair share of ups and downs - the joy in seeing relationships blossom and flourish, the agony of hurtful words exchanged, the thankfulness experienced in renewed friendships, the excitement of an awesome holiday abroad with good friends, the sadness associated with saying goodbye - all of which have left indelible spots in my memory.
Indeed I have been reminded yet again that nothing in life is certain. There may be times we soar above the heights, but we can never escape the periods we may have to wallow in the pits. (Sounds so emo. Haha.)
Our sojourn on this earth is never a straight road (actually, that would be rather 'boring', wouldn't it?). A chronic choleric like me at his best would only be able to formulate plans with utmost precision, but ultimately it is the Lord who decrees our direction and fate.
Humbling it is as I think these thoughts on an early Thursday morning.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
that thing called LOVE
I'm learning that the adage that "those whom you love the most, stand to hurt you the most" rings pretty true.
After all, isn't it true that in loving others, most of us do expect to be loved back?
...that we quietly harbour hopes that our acts of generosity and kindness would be reciprocated by their recipients?
...that when we loosen our guard and reveal more of our hidden selves that we wish the ones so priviledged to be given our trust would perhaps do likewise?
Isn't it true that perhaps the deepest, most primal ache of our hearts...is to love and to be loved back in return?
With these thoughts, I read the Bible's 'Love Chapter', 1 Corinthians 13 again tonight. And I was reminded once again, but at a much more personal level that...
...love is not jealous
...love does not seek its own
...love does not take into account a wrong suffered
...love bears all things
...love believes all things
...love endures all things
...love never fails
Man, do we so easily stray from these ideals of what love should be, henceforth causing so much heartbreak to ourselves and those that we love! We heap all kinds of expectations on others just as they probably do towards us!
While I believe we should strive towards the love 'standards' of 1 Cor 13, in realising that we (including our loved ones who would inevitably disappoint us from time to time) will never fully attain these standards until Kingdom come, let us look onward to Christ Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of love; the One who selflessly loved us with an unfailing love that endured even the cross with its scorn and shame...
A love that will remain steadfast through the ages.
Amen.
After all, isn't it true that in loving others, most of us do expect to be loved back?
...that we quietly harbour hopes that our acts of generosity and kindness would be reciprocated by their recipients?
...that when we loosen our guard and reveal more of our hidden selves that we wish the ones so priviledged to be given our trust would perhaps do likewise?
Isn't it true that perhaps the deepest, most primal ache of our hearts...is to love and to be loved back in return?
With these thoughts, I read the Bible's 'Love Chapter', 1 Corinthians 13 again tonight. And I was reminded once again, but at a much more personal level that...
...love is not jealous
...love does not seek its own
...love does not take into account a wrong suffered
...love bears all things
...love believes all things
...love endures all things
...love never fails
Man, do we so easily stray from these ideals of what love should be, henceforth causing so much heartbreak to ourselves and those that we love! We heap all kinds of expectations on others just as they probably do towards us!
While I believe we should strive towards the love 'standards' of 1 Cor 13, in realising that we (including our loved ones who would inevitably disappoint us from time to time) will never fully attain these standards until Kingdom come, let us look onward to Christ Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of love; the One who selflessly loved us with an unfailing love that endured even the cross with its scorn and shame...
A love that will remain steadfast through the ages.
Amen.
Friday, August 22, 2008
meditations from the psalms
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise Him,
my Saviour and my God.
- Psalm 42:12
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise Him,
my Saviour and my God.
- Psalm 42:12
Saturday, August 16, 2008
no brainer
I had a really good time tonight =)
There is something uniquely appealing about playing ridiculous arcade games that don't require one to put in much brain sense. All is required is a simple wave of a hand, frantic twists, turns and whacks on two awkwardly-shaped joysticks, a passion for trigger-happy bliss, strength to sustain (and inflict) body shoves from (to) your opponent, and a fist ready for a punching bag.
I reckon it was the panacea that I needed this week.
Let's do it again! Haha!
There is something uniquely appealing about playing ridiculous arcade games that don't require one to put in much brain sense. All is required is a simple wave of a hand, frantic twists, turns and whacks on two awkwardly-shaped joysticks, a passion for trigger-happy bliss, strength to sustain (and inflict) body shoves from (to) your opponent, and a fist ready for a punching bag.
I reckon it was the panacea that I needed this week.
Let's do it again! Haha!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
help
I lift up my eyes to the hills;
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
- Psalm 121:1-2
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
- Psalm 121:1-2
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
emo alert
Sometimes, we all reach a point where the best thing that we can afford to say is "I don't know".
"I don't know". It's funny how three short words can at once invoke feelings of despair - when we realise we don't have all the answers we are looking for; and yet freedom - when we are drawn back to the reality that not knowing all the answers is really the essence of our human frailty, and therefore that we are truly free to "not know".
Today, too many questions abound and I'm tired of thinking up even more. I want to tell you now that I simply don't know...what to do, what to say, what to think, whatever...
I just don't know, really.
"I don't know". It's funny how three short words can at once invoke feelings of despair - when we realise we don't have all the answers we are looking for; and yet freedom - when we are drawn back to the reality that not knowing all the answers is really the essence of our human frailty, and therefore that we are truly free to "not know".
Today, too many questions abound and I'm tired of thinking up even more. I want to tell you now that I simply don't know...what to do, what to say, what to think, whatever...
I just don't know, really.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
tennis!
4 hours of tennis is so good, but pretty grueling for the ol' aging body. I am so tired, I was ready to sleep at 9.30 pm! Haha. These are times I am reminded that I really need to get that body back in shape again. The trick is really finding the time to clock in a few hours of decent exercise in the middle of my busy week schedule. And that's aside from the weekend badminton / tennis / jogging sessions.
Still, I must say that the last two Sunday tennis sessions have been good. I'm glad to have finally picked up that old racquet again to swing about at speeding lime-green fuzzy balls. I've got lots to work on though after years of rust have set in due to lack of play.
Last week was really an effort to work on my rusty ground strokes, lest we end up seeing more tennis balls flying out of the court! (Ahem, Caleb!) This week however, I focused a little more on my serve and was able to hit a few decent ones, including some almost-down-the-line aces! Woo hoo! I'm still struggling with an erratic ball toss though, and I think that's been affecting the consistency of my serve. So yup, there's still more work to be done.
Ok, my eyes are getting heavier by the minute. The yawns are getting more frequent too. I say happy-sleepy-time is now!
Still, I must say that the last two Sunday tennis sessions have been good. I'm glad to have finally picked up that old racquet again to swing about at speeding lime-green fuzzy balls. I've got lots to work on though after years of rust have set in due to lack of play.
Last week was really an effort to work on my rusty ground strokes, lest we end up seeing more tennis balls flying out of the court! (Ahem, Caleb!) This week however, I focused a little more on my serve and was able to hit a few decent ones, including some almost-down-the-line aces! Woo hoo! I'm still struggling with an erratic ball toss though, and I think that's been affecting the consistency of my serve. So yup, there's still more work to be done.
Ok, my eyes are getting heavier by the minute. The yawns are getting more frequent too. I say happy-sleepy-time is now!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
back from the land of smiles
I'm back, although sadly in a way, it does feel like I hardly left! It was a well-deserved break, but 4 days is too short nonetheless. Haha.
Still, I'm refreshed, relaxed and tanned...hallmarks of a fine holiday spent in the company of sunny skies, beautiful beaches, and good friends. I even managed to rack up a couple of dives too, while Bing did his OW certification. Racha Yai is not quite the kind of top notch see-something-new-at-every-dive as one would expect from diving at the Similans, but having one of my best buds around more than made up for it.
During the trip, we also paid a visit to the Simon Cabaret, which was really tacky-ladyboy-Thailand at its best. But man oh man, it's pretty hard to tell the difference these days. Some of those "ladyboys" are...umm...pretty hawt! SCARY!! They're everywhere in town too, so don't be too surprised if the 'chick' who grabs hold of you while strolling down Bangla Road turns out to be a "he"! Yikes!
And yes, chick-dodging in these places is a delicate art, which any guy has to master, lest he be impartial to being dragged to some "free show". Flash a smile, or speak forth a word from those lips, and you're only asking for more trouble.
On a slow Monday morning, I'm left reminiscing between work about Phuket and the land of smiles.
Oh yeah, it was a good one =)
Still, I'm refreshed, relaxed and tanned...hallmarks of a fine holiday spent in the company of sunny skies, beautiful beaches, and good friends. I even managed to rack up a couple of dives too, while Bing did his OW certification. Racha Yai is not quite the kind of top notch see-something-new-at-every-dive as one would expect from diving at the Similans, but having one of my best buds around more than made up for it.
During the trip, we also paid a visit to the Simon Cabaret, which was really tacky-ladyboy-Thailand at its best. But man oh man, it's pretty hard to tell the difference these days. Some of those "ladyboys" are...umm...pretty hawt! SCARY!! They're everywhere in town too, so don't be too surprised if the 'chick' who grabs hold of you while strolling down Bangla Road turns out to be a "he"! Yikes!
And yes, chick-dodging in these places is a delicate art, which any guy has to master, lest he be impartial to being dragged to some "free show". Flash a smile, or speak forth a word from those lips, and you're only asking for more trouble.
On a slow Monday morning, I'm left reminiscing between work about Phuket and the land of smiles.
Oh yeah, it was a good one =)
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
keep pressing on
"...but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
-Isaiah 40:31
As I prepare for yet another hectic work day, I so need to cling on to these promises to keep my soul sane. These are great words of hope and that's about all I have now anyway.
"Gotta keep pressing on". It's funny how after sharing these few words with another over the last week, I'm finding my own advice falling back on me.
So tired of it all. Need to break free.
-Isaiah 40:31
As I prepare for yet another hectic work day, I so need to cling on to these promises to keep my soul sane. These are great words of hope and that's about all I have now anyway.
"Gotta keep pressing on". It's funny how after sharing these few words with another over the last week, I'm finding my own advice falling back on me.
So tired of it all. Need to break free.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
and another
A spurt of spontaneity, a few clicks of the mouse button, and I'm going!!!
Can't wait, can't wait!!!
=))
Can't wait, can't wait!!!
=))
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
procrastination
A brief exchange brings a humorous respite to yet another hectic day in the week. Lay off the movies for now, will ya? Wait for me to watch Kung Fu Panda!
Dinner was good today. M and F cooked spaghetti aglio olio, baked chicken wings and made a fruit salad to go along with it. It's nice to have a home-cooked dinner waiting for you when you get back after a hard day's work.
As I type this upstairs in the loft, I am tempted to join the gang who came over to watch Family Guy. Unfortunately, I can't. I've really gotta get started on my little sermonette for the boys' outing this weekend.
Ok, enough of this procrastination. Now get your a$$ to work =p
Dinner was good today. M and F cooked spaghetti aglio olio, baked chicken wings and made a fruit salad to go along with it. It's nice to have a home-cooked dinner waiting for you when you get back after a hard day's work.
As I type this upstairs in the loft, I am tempted to join the gang who came over to watch Family Guy. Unfortunately, I can't. I've really gotta get started on my little sermonette for the boys' outing this weekend.
Ok, enough of this procrastination. Now get your a$$ to work =p
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
lifted
Whew! I finally managed to wrap up one of the larger deals that I have been working of late. But while I enjoy a pithy breather amidst the recent work mayhem, more projects are looming in the horizon. Some look exciting, but the signs are ominous that I will likely be up to my neck with work for quite some more time!
In these 'dark' times, I am finding myself lifted by little gestures that come my way...through actions, the phone or email from time to time. The occassional little thing that lifts the spirit, turns the frown upside down into a smile, and reminds me that my world is so much bigger than IPOs or corporate mergers and take-overs.
When it all gets darker then
The whole thing falls apart I guess
It doesn't really matter 'bout the rain
'Cos we'll get through it anyway
We'll get up and start again.
'Cos we could be lifted
From the shadows
Lifted.
In these 'dark' times, I am finding myself lifted by little gestures that come my way...through actions, the phone or email from time to time. The occassional little thing that lifts the spirit, turns the frown upside down into a smile, and reminds me that my world is so much bigger than IPOs or corporate mergers and take-overs.
When it all gets darker then
The whole thing falls apart I guess
It doesn't really matter 'bout the rain
'Cos we'll get through it anyway
We'll get up and start again.
'Cos we could be lifted
From the shadows
Lifted.
Sunday, June 08, 2008
rest
It's amazing what a good weekend can do to turn its 5 preceding days around.
On that note, simplicity rocks.
I am refreshed.
Renewed.
With yet another busy week looming just a couple of hours away, I could really use a holiday...soon. And thanks to you, you have gotten me seriously thinking about Thailand again. Well, let's see how the killer schedule goes.
On that note, simplicity rocks.
I am refreshed.
Renewed.
With yet another busy week looming just a couple of hours away, I could really use a holiday...soon. And thanks to you, you have gotten me seriously thinking about Thailand again. Well, let's see how the killer schedule goes.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
2 days
I had a busy but good weekend. And if you were wondering, no, I do not get a kick out of pressure because that's just sick.
This morning went like a bullet train. But interestingly, I discovered that people seem to like bullet trains and apparently, this train still managed to make sense.
Been discovering more interesting tools and applications associated with the new toy =) I can already see it re-defining several things around me. Blogging included.
2 days that resonated with the inner man.
This morning went like a bullet train. But interestingly, I discovered that people seem to like bullet trains and apparently, this train still managed to make sense.
Been discovering more interesting tools and applications associated with the new toy =) I can already see it re-defining several things around me. Blogging included.
2 days that resonated with the inner man.
Friday, May 09, 2008
climbing mountains
3-and-a-half-hour conversations are always good for the heart.
I'm glad to have set aside that fraction of my life to listen to you, and to occasionally chip in with my 2 cents. It helped me to understand you better...the way you tick, and I must say that it opened up my eyes to quite a few INTERESTING revelations ;)
I'm glad you overcame your mountain...and LIVED to see today. Know that I'll be there when the next one comes.
The throat is feeling a little sore this morning. I'm wondering if it's due to all the talking, or perhaps my Milo ais kau?
I'm glad to have set aside that fraction of my life to listen to you, and to occasionally chip in with my 2 cents. It helped me to understand you better...the way you tick, and I must say that it opened up my eyes to quite a few INTERESTING revelations ;)
I'm glad you overcame your mountain...and LIVED to see today. Know that I'll be there when the next one comes.
The throat is feeling a little sore this morning. I'm wondering if it's due to all the talking, or perhaps my Milo ais kau?
Monday, April 28, 2008
we are conquerors
Mt Kinabalu was a blast! We made it to the summit!! *pats on the back for everyone*
Burning thunder thighs, 6.00 am sunrise 4,095 m above sea level, yellow daffodils, caffeine chill-outs at the terrace, trusty Nikon DSLR, our RM350 'hoi tai kai', beach-bumming at Pulau Mamutik, "Bunny-Bunny" on the rooftop...
memories to last a lifetime.
Burning thunder thighs, 6.00 am sunrise 4,095 m above sea level, yellow daffodils, caffeine chill-outs at the terrace, trusty Nikon DSLR, our RM350 'hoi tai kai', beach-bumming at Pulau Mamutik, "Bunny-Bunny" on the rooftop...
memories to last a lifetime.
Monday, April 21, 2008
a thing with that four letter word
YOU!
Glad you've taken one step closer to your happily ever after.
Very interesting, but nah...expected.
*****
An unexpected phone call with a glass of wine in hand.
Little sms exchanges while chicken wings are baking in the oven.
Enough to pique my curiosity on what's going on in your mind.
Glad you've taken one step closer to your happily ever after.
Very interesting, but nah...expected.
*****
An unexpected phone call with a glass of wine in hand.
Little sms exchanges while chicken wings are baking in the oven.
Enough to pique my curiosity on what's going on in your mind.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
time passes by quickly when you're having fun
Day 5 - The Andaman Sea (Richelieu Rock, Koh Tachai)
Sunrise at Richelieu Rock.
The day began before 6.00 am today. We washed up and got ready for the first dive briefing at about 6.15 am. As the orange rays of the rising sun began to wash over the once indigo sky, we could see that we were moored in the middle of the open sea with no land in sight. The topography of the Richelieu Rock dive site is that of a completely submerged rocky outcrop, whereby only the tip is visible during low tide.
We were slated to make 3 dives at Richelieu Rock today with the hopes of sighting whale sharks, the largest fish in the world, that often swim by the area during this time of the year. Other large pelagics such as manta rays are also often seen in the area as it is noted to be a 'cleaning station'.
Anticipation was high today, although we (or at least I did) tried to manage our expectations realistically. After all, there was really no such thing as a 'guaranteed' sighting in open seas.
Dive #1 came and went. So did Dive #2, and then Dive #3. Sadly, no whale shark. But the dives were all pretty significant in themselves. The underwater topography of Richelieu Rock and the rich diversity of its marine life definitely made it one of the best places I've ever dived.
It was beautiful in short. Large schools of fishes of various shapes and sizes thronged the area. Corals were bountiful and one section featured a HUGE anemone garden. It was a sight for sore eyes. Rich colours danced around us as if all of creation decided to put on an elaborate show just for us. We spotted colourful nudibranchs, shrimps and even the elusive seahorse! So we really had little reason to be disappointed, really =)
Brekky time.
[Photo from Kyle] A shy mantis prawn.
[Photo from Kyle] Harlequin shrimp having a sea star for lunch.
[Photo from Kyle] Tiger egg cowrie. These things are so small!!
By this time, we had gotten so used to living on the boat that Yao and I decided to make ourselves a little more 'at home' =)
Last dive of the day was back at Koh Tachai. Tonight was to be our last night on board the MQII. We spent it lying on the sun deck watching the moon and stars, chilling out with a couple of beers, and mulling over the trip that was soon to end...boo hoo!
Day 6 - The Andaman Sea (Koh Bon), Khao Lak
The last two dives of the trip were to be made in Koh Bon, a little island also famed to be a 'cleaning station' for manta rays and other pelagics. It turned out we didn't see manta rays, but this was where I had my close encounter with a leopard shark that wanted to get up close and personal. A swim-by less than 2 feet away was an awesome opportunity for me to observe the fish really close, watch its beady eyes, gills in rhythmic movement, spotted hide, graceful fin. A totally awesome experience.
One of the 10 or so leopard sharks that we encountered in that single dive.
Watching our dive video.
Photo time...Team KL, Aussie Kyle and Miko.
[Photo from Angie] All the divers and divemasters minus Tom who was taking the shot.
And shortly after that, we bade goodbye and went our separate ways. We checked into the Nang Thong Bay Resort, which was just a stone's throw away from the dive centre and spent the night in Khao Lak.
Back in Khao Lak. Colourful fishing boats at Thaplamu Pier.
Hungry divers need good Thai food.
Tired divers need good Thai massage.
Day 7 - Khao Lak, Phuket
Our room at the Nang Thong Bay Resort. Quite a mess but it was pretty comfortable and luxurious actually. Even had a jacuzzi and a separate shower area!
Banana flower.
The beach right at our door step.
Environs at the resort.
The pool. Nice chill out place.
Mickey helps you swim!
Shadows and contrast.
Khao Lak was badly hit by the tsunami in 2006, hence the signboards all around.
Last minute shopping.
A final shot outside the reception before heading to Phuket Airport.
The end. *sob*
Sunrise at Richelieu Rock.
The day began before 6.00 am today. We washed up and got ready for the first dive briefing at about 6.15 am. As the orange rays of the rising sun began to wash over the once indigo sky, we could see that we were moored in the middle of the open sea with no land in sight. The topography of the Richelieu Rock dive site is that of a completely submerged rocky outcrop, whereby only the tip is visible during low tide.
We were slated to make 3 dives at Richelieu Rock today with the hopes of sighting whale sharks, the largest fish in the world, that often swim by the area during this time of the year. Other large pelagics such as manta rays are also often seen in the area as it is noted to be a 'cleaning station'.
Anticipation was high today, although we (or at least I did) tried to manage our expectations realistically. After all, there was really no such thing as a 'guaranteed' sighting in open seas.
Dive #1 came and went. So did Dive #2, and then Dive #3. Sadly, no whale shark. But the dives were all pretty significant in themselves. The underwater topography of Richelieu Rock and the rich diversity of its marine life definitely made it one of the best places I've ever dived.
It was beautiful in short. Large schools of fishes of various shapes and sizes thronged the area. Corals were bountiful and one section featured a HUGE anemone garden. It was a sight for sore eyes. Rich colours danced around us as if all of creation decided to put on an elaborate show just for us. We spotted colourful nudibranchs, shrimps and even the elusive seahorse! So we really had little reason to be disappointed, really =)
Brekky time.
[Photo from Kyle] A shy mantis prawn.
[Photo from Kyle] Harlequin shrimp having a sea star for lunch.
[Photo from Kyle] Tiger egg cowrie. These things are so small!!
By this time, we had gotten so used to living on the boat that Yao and I decided to make ourselves a little more 'at home' =)
Last dive of the day was back at Koh Tachai. Tonight was to be our last night on board the MQII. We spent it lying on the sun deck watching the moon and stars, chilling out with a couple of beers, and mulling over the trip that was soon to end...boo hoo!
Day 6 - The Andaman Sea (Koh Bon), Khao Lak
The last two dives of the trip were to be made in Koh Bon, a little island also famed to be a 'cleaning station' for manta rays and other pelagics. It turned out we didn't see manta rays, but this was where I had my close encounter with a leopard shark that wanted to get up close and personal. A swim-by less than 2 feet away was an awesome opportunity for me to observe the fish really close, watch its beady eyes, gills in rhythmic movement, spotted hide, graceful fin. A totally awesome experience.
One of the 10 or so leopard sharks that we encountered in that single dive.
Watching our dive video.
Photo time...Team KL, Aussie Kyle and Miko.
[Photo from Angie] All the divers and divemasters minus Tom who was taking the shot.
And shortly after that, we bade goodbye and went our separate ways. We checked into the Nang Thong Bay Resort, which was just a stone's throw away from the dive centre and spent the night in Khao Lak.
Back in Khao Lak. Colourful fishing boats at Thaplamu Pier.
Hungry divers need good Thai food.
Tired divers need good Thai massage.
Day 7 - Khao Lak, Phuket
Our room at the Nang Thong Bay Resort. Quite a mess but it was pretty comfortable and luxurious actually. Even had a jacuzzi and a separate shower area!
Banana flower.
The beach right at our door step.
Environs at the resort.
The pool. Nice chill out place.
Mickey helps you swim!
Shadows and contrast.
Khao Lak was badly hit by the tsunami in 2006, hence the signboards all around.
Last minute shopping.
A final shot outside the reception before heading to Phuket Airport.
The end. *sob*
Saturday, March 29, 2008
a velvet renaissance
It was fun while it lasted, but a close brush with both death and the local authorities is probably indication enough that something wasn't too right last night.
Point to note: No compromise. Period.
Point to note: No compromise. Period.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)